So maybe a little deeper thought today....
I was driving in the car today and listening to the radio and the Stephen Curtis Chapman song came on called "Heaven is the Face". Of course I cried as I listened to it, then a whole bunch of memories flooded my brain. So if you saw me driving down Woodruff road bawling my eyes out, now you know why :)
It brought me back to the day when Isaac was 10 months old. He'd had his transplant 5 months earlier and everything had been going great. We took him in to the hospital for some IV fluids late one evening and we finally got a room around 3am. We were woken up by the nurse early that morning (I'm not even sure what time it was because it is all a blur). She said Isaac was seizing and she didn't know how long he had been like that. The whole left side of his body was non responsive. They took him down for a Cat Scan, but had to stop several times because of the seizures. The moved him to the PICU and his respiratory rate was low, but they weren't really doing anything except monitoring his seizures. The doctor in charge was not calling his transplant team and communicating with them, so our home health nurse who had come in her jammies the night before to help us and was up at the hospital that morning called Cincinnati and told them what all was happening.
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| Isaac in Greenville, they kept the EEG on him to monitor the seizures he was having. |
Cincinnati Children's hospital flew a jet plane down to get Isaac and we flew up that day. Ben drove up as there was only room for 1 parent. Isaac was placed in the PICU and intubated to help him breathe. The next day he kept crashing and the doctors were pumping him full of every medicine they could think of, even some that were very risky and we had to weigh the options of using very high risk meds or risk not fighting whatever it was that was attacking his little body. Of course we went with using the medicines. They kept running all the tests they could think of and still couldn't find what was wrong. In the meantime he was getting worse. The evening of the first full day we were there, the doctors pulled us aside in a room with sofas and tissues and sat us down (this is the room you don't want to go to). They pretty much told us they had tried everything they could think of but he just kept deteriorating. They offered to call our family for us. Most of our family were already on their way. This was also when I noticed we were in a room with a window leading to the room next to us. A long time ago, I had asked a nurse why would they have a window in some of the PICU rooms and she told me it was for when a child was close to dying, they would use it for the family members and they would open up the curtains so the family members would be close by. Well, I noticed that the room next to us, that our window led to, was empty.
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| Isaac in Cincinnati the day he almost went to Heaven. |
About an hour later, as Ben and I were in Isaac's room he was crashing again. And let me tell you it is nothing like TV. There were doctors and nurses everywhere, but they were completely calm and worked together so well and quietly. They had already called in the chaplain who was in the corner of the room praying. Ben and I were standing at the end of the bed holding his feet. I remember praying to God and saying "ok, if this is what you had planned for Isaac's life, I will accept it, but I would really love to keep him in our family and I wouldn't know how to tell his 3 year old sister if he died." Then this strange, calming peace came over me and I just felt like whatever happened it would be ok. I felt like God was right there in the room with us and was calming me. It was a very strange feeling, but very peaceful. Isaac pulled through the night and then the next day. Then they put another patient in the room next to us (a good sign). The doctors to this day still call it a miracle.
That strange, peaceful feeling that I had experienced was kind of embarrassing, I was actually feeling bad about feeling peace while Isaac was so sick and crashing. But a couple of weeks later as we were having dinner (thanks to a friend who came to the hospital to stay with Isaac), I decided to go ahead and tell Ben about it. He was shocked when I told him, because he had had that same strange, peaceful feeling at the same time. That was when I knew that God had put that calming, peaceful protection around us.
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| Isaac - today :) |